well.. its been so long.. very long

i'm a human. i can see and feel it.. but i still trying hard

trying hundred and thousand time but it still won't work..

i willing to open my heart to you.. but you not opening to me anymore :`(

I always pretending... pretend im okay and alright..

crying not going to solve problem but i just cant control myself every time i see or think of it.

i feel cold.. very cold

I really dunno what to do already.. now i dun even dare to contact or tell you stuff.. i must think a lot before i send a simple text.. i scare you will think that im fake..

actually i just want to care for you.. but i very scare

everyday i just pray hard that ppl dun hate me.. dun think that im fake or what.. because i cant afford to lose any one again

I'm thinking a lot everyday.. and it affect me a lot alot..