I still trying my very best to think positively.. even though i know that it not gonna be the same.. but i will still hope that it just so qiao or happen for some reason..

Everyday i trying to tell myself its okay its alright.. but actually its not okay and alright at all..
I trying to pretend that i never see or know anything but the feeling in my heart cant pretend.

Now i dun even comfortable to talk to anyone abt this.. i sld say i have no one to talk to cos i guess no one will care and willing to listen to me anymore..

I just hope that my work can keep me busy so i can dun think abt it.. yes im a coward.. i want to avoid it cos i not brave enough to face it